So the big move to the cube was today. I'll admit, it's depressing. I definitely miss the ole office, but I'm not going to complain. After all, it's not like I'm that high up on the food chain. Besides, I believe I have the ability to make my cubicle a happy and homey space. I really believe. Already invested in some picture frames. Now I just need to find a french message board with hanging capablities.... I shall invest in some headphones too.

This is so pathetic. I'm going to go to sleep early tonight so I don't wake up late for the Duke/Seton Hall game. Laugh, but I have to be there for my Blue Devils. Thank goodness the game is in the afternoon! Otherwise, I might have had to ditch this shindig my company is throwing. The tourney is getting really good...

Okay, I'm going to go tidy up my apartment and finish some little projects. blog later.
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Two blogs in one day!! Crazy... however, I must comment on the finish that my wonderful Blue Devils made tonight. Umm... yeah, Alabama State, I'm sorry you had to play Duke. I'm kind of annoyed that they didn't broadcast more than the first 10 minutes of the game but I guess it wouldn't have been that great of a game to watch. The Nevada/Mich. State was definitely more interesting.

I'm breaking my diet. One or two or.... four cookies won't hurt right? Tomorrow, I move into my very own cubicle. No more shared office with window and thermostat. I will be in a cube, in the basement of a three-story building. Lucky me. I'm excited though! I really am. I'm going to make my cube REALLY homey.

Things are better. I'm better, he's better, we're better. Actually, I'm not really better but getting there. I have faith. I can't forget that.

Just need to remember how blessed I am and how lucky I am. That and the occasional ego boost. I'm thinking I need to switch to xanga. I want to put little faces in my posts. But it's nice to be different....

All right, it's almost time for bed! I hope everyone is having a nice Thursday.

blog later.
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I think I have ghosts. Don't call me crazy, I'm not joking. How do you get over your deepest fears and your greatest insecurities? This is my current battle.

I want so much to be happy. Truly, unconditionally happy. It's so hard though. The slightest thing can upset me, and lately, that thing seems to be my past. I don't know how to forget things. I think that's my greatest strength and biggest flaw. I can remember the most random things and of course, the most painful things. And now, I just want to forget. I want to forget certain things ever happened. Sometimes I wish I was someone else, that I wasn't me. Everyone always thinks it's so great being me. I mean, that there's nothing in my life to complain about. which is completely true. I don't have anything to complain about. But that doesn't mean this pit I feel within isn't there, that it's just in my imagination.

I don't want people to doubt me anymore. It's hard enough when I doubt myself, but I don't need other people doubting me too. I think that's what gets me the most. When people doubt my capabilities and talents. It's not like I'm not hard enough on myself.

All right, I need to go cheer on my boys. They're playing Alabama State right now. I don't expect them to lose. I don't think I can handle another loss... two in one week would be too much.

blog later.
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Arizona was nice. Very different from the Midwest. Lots of sand and lots of cactuses. NO JOKE. Driving when there's lightening in the desert is freaky $hit, especially when you're driving alone at 5:30!! I made it to the airport though. Only got lost for like 10 mins.

Where do I begin? There isn't much for me to blog about though. I think I've finally come to terms with my future. New game plan. Let's see how long this one works. I've figured out the perfect way thoug for me to study (seeing as how I don't know how to turn on the TV in the fitness room.) I'm starting to feel good though. Sometimes when I think about all the wonderful people I have in my life, I'm so humbled. I only wish I knew how to tell all these people how grateful and appreciative I am for their love and support over the last six months.

There's one person in particular I'm incredibly humbled by. You know who you are. Thank you for all your compassion and understanding. From the bottom of my heart.

All right, my mind is all over the place. I promise the next blog will be more substantial and better written.

Blog later.
me.