Damn. My life has been the pits. I'm waiting for the day that all of this craziness just ends. Ever since August, I have been stressed. Yes, STRESSED. Happily, this past weekend I had the opportunity to be an absolute BUM and I slept in until 12:30!! It was great. I miss the days where I would sleep in until 2 or 3 in the afternoon...ahh...the good ole days.

So I don't know how all of the sudden my life got so crazy and hectic. Class, work and well...family and friends. I want things to be simple. I'm starting to wonder in life, do you think about what will make other people happy or do you focus just on what will make you happy? See!? my current dilemma is I think I know what will make me happy but I'm scared to go after it. I have a feeling that if I go after what will make me happy, someone close to me is bound to get hurt. Not bound, it's inevitable. And that's what scares me. But I'm also scared that I'm holding back and I don't want to hold back anymore. I don't want to be scared of certain things that aren't worth being scared of because well...there really isn't anything to be scared of so long as you know what's important.

I need to answer this question for an application and the question is, what have you learned and gained from your volunteer or service experience. State examples. I'm at a loss for words unfortunately. But I think what my volunteering has taught me or rather what it has given me is a greater appreciate for the life I have been given. I think about where my father came from, what my mom gave up and I think about the life I've been given and honestly, it's been a good life. Someone said I was spoiled and that's the truth. I have been spoiled with love, with the bare necessities, without having to deal with any real hardships or tragedy. But now that I've established that I owe my family a lot, I'm wondering how high of a priority do I place them in my life. I'm confused.

I need to go to sleep. I have to talk tomorrow and I have no idea what I'm going to say but I need to get some sleep because it will be another long day. So excited, can't you tell?

blog later.
me.