Exercise tips from someone who doesn't exercise much:
Do not underestimate pilates workouts. Might not hurt much when you're doing it, but you definitely feel it the next day.
Doing kickboxing workouts, on a carpet, without socks and shoes is a BAD idea.

I think I'm going to sleep well tonight. I'm hoping this new little workout will help me regain strength in my arm and shoulder. I'm supposed to be lifting weight but I figure, this way it's more fun and interesting.

It occurred to me today what has been bothering me lately isn't really that important. I faced my biggest fears already and I came out okay. I guess I forgot that I had the answers I needed all along.

Now, if only I could fit into my old jeans...

blog later.
me.

I don't even remember what the last thing I wrote about was. Well, I'm writing now because I'm getting sick of starting at my computer screen. It's deadline week at work and happily, one of my bigger deadlines is done with. Unfortunately, now I have another one for this Friday. *sigh* At least I have a 3 days weekend to look forward to. Might have to stay late Friday but I'm sincerely hoping that doesn't happen.

So! where do I begin? Well, it occurred to me this morning how much stronger I am now then I was two years ago. I've also decided that one of the best things to happen in my life is the birth of my nephew. He's just so freaking entertaining! What's more, now there's a kid to play with in the family. Nephews and nieces are the best. All the fun without all the work!

The troublesome and messed up dreams seem to be re-appearing. Wonderful. I don't know what it is about spring. The same thing happened to me last spring but this year, the dreams aren't as disturbing. There are a few reocurring themes though that I'm trying to decipher. (I figure I might as well start analyzing myself.)

What else? Well...I don't really know the status of my personal life. I can tell you that I'm excited to be able to fit into my J.Crew shorts again though! Yippee! And I can wear all my BR pants. Life is good again...well, sort of. It would help to know how certain people feel about me and what they think of me. Despite my better judgement telling me I shouldn't worry about what other people think of me and what really matters is how I feel and what I think about myself, there are a few people's opinions that I would really like to know.

To be quite honest, I wish I knew how one person in particular felt about me. It's so frustrating when you know how you feel about a person but you don't know how that person feels about you. And you want to assume and take a guess, and of course being a pessimist, I always assume the worst. So then you start to harbor this fear that you're right, that the person you care about thinks the absolute worst of you and then you start to wonder that maybe it's better if you just avoid the topic all together. But despite your rational, you still think about it and ultimately want to know the truth--you want to know how this person thinks and feels about you.

All right, I think I've been philosophical enough for today. You know, one of the best feelings in the world is knowing your little nephew wants you to say bye to them before they take their nap. T can't wait for Monday. It should be a good day....even if it does rain. Perhaps I will go balloon shopping this weekend after all....

blog later.
me.