So one week until someone's birthday... I hope he got my gift. It's a nice gift. If someone got me that, I would be happy. I hope he thinks that too. I hope...

So I haven't stopped thinking about him. I'm pathetic. *sigh* Why is love so difficult? Honestly, I wish something in my life was plain and simple. I wish there could be one thing that wasn't complicated and I was hoping that would be it. Maybe in a few months it will be... hopefully... =)

I plan on going home to Chicago this weekend. I miss my DGs too much. I ventured to the bookstore today and got some cool stuff. =) hee hee... I can't wait to bring it to my wonderful sisters.

Okay, there's stuff on the stove so I need to go watch it and ensure that I don't burn the building down. Did I mention I'm attempting to make bulgogi tonight? I hope it goes okay...

I miss him... I hope he misses me too.

It is 10:30 and do you know what I'm doing? EATING!!! It is a FABULOUS feeling. I'm stuffing my face with my new favorite food, Caesar salad and loving EVERY moment! I haven't been so hungry in such a long time. It's nice to like food again... especially my salad... ahh... how I've missed you.

So this weekend was just like a GIGANTIC dream come true. There are reminders here and there to tell me that it wasn't a dream but still, it was so surreal. I feel better now. I feel like I've gained a little bit and I'm sure of how I feel. It's amazing when you know you love another person unconditionally and can embrace that person wholly and completely. I never thought love would be this way but it is great. Painful, but still great and I'm thankful that I am able to feel this way. Part of me wants to give it up and forget it, but then again, I don't know if I could or ever would be able to feel this way about another person again.

Things are starting to get better, at least, that's what I'm telling myself. I splurged again today- Coach purse. HOWEVER! I did get it on sale, so it wasn't a TOTAL splurge. I've now deemed my new activity "comfort shopping." I don't think there will be any comfort shopping until payday though.

If someone reads this in the future, thanks for reminding me what it feels like to be alive and happy. I needed it. Honestly, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Blog later ('cuz I'm stuffed!)