So! I've started to watch My Name is Earl. It's pretty good. Actually, I like it because I believe in Karma. Call me crazy, call me stupid, but I do. I am convinced that the reason I got $hat on by someone is because of how poorly I've treated some other people in the past. Mainly, one person. Seriously, that person is the one thing I need to get off my list. Unfortunately, I don't think I will ever get the chance to do something nice for them. I've tried and I've gone back and forth about how much effort I should put forward, but I'm torn. Do you just give up? I'm starting to wonder if I will never get forgiveness. Because if you really did forgive me, and you were okay with everything, you would speak to me, right? You wouldn't ignore me. You wouldn't be sarcastic and nonchalant. I know I was rotten and cruel and I take full blame for it but at some point, you have to forgive and give that person the chance to redeem themselves. But like I said before, I don't think I'm going to ever get that chance to redeem myself and I'm wondering if it's just me, the person who's still mad at me, or that's just the way life goes. *sigh*

I'm going to do everything in my power this weekend to visit the Banana Republic outlet store. Sadly, I'm SUPER excited about this. Actually, it's not sad. I've really wanted to check a store out and I can't think of a better way to spend my time and money. Hee hee...It will be great. I hope. You know what, I am not ashamed of the fact that I enjoy shopping. It's relaxing and therapeutic. I get exercise (from walking back and forth) and I get inspired. So sue me if I like to shop and buy myself pretty things instead of spending my money on alcohol and cover fees.

I've also decided that in another life, I'd like to be a stylist. Stylist or pastry chef-I can't decide.
How I need to get out of this state. It is doing bad things to my mind.

blog later.
me.
I wrote everything below last week when I was bored.

Things I know for sure about myself:
1) I don't like big bugs. I don't even like looking at big bugs. There are bug guts on my office wall because I was too freaked out to kill the giant bug (and it was HUGE!) thus I had to have a co-worker smack it to its death for me.
2) I don't like tracking services on the internet. For example, when you were on telnet you could see if someone was logged on and where they were logged on. I didn't like that. An ex one time decided to write me after we broke up and of course, proceeded to talk/argue with me through telnet. I don't like that. And now, I'm not a fan of this whole "who viewed my profile." I don't want to know if my ex's new girlfriend is checking up on me. It's nice to know how my potential stalkers may be in life but at the same time, I'd like to stay blissfully ignorant.
3) I spend too much time worrying about gifts for my nephew. With the amount of research I've put in over the last two weeks on Children's books, you think it was my actual job.
4) I need to live in a city with skyscrapers, public transportation and NO DEER.
5) In another life, I want to be a pastry chef.