i give up. last weekend just kind of made me want to give up.
it'll be a year soon. gosh, it doesn't seem like it's been a year. i don't think i've grown. in fact, i feel like i've digressed. it's been an okay year. made some stupid mistakes but they were good mistakes. puts my mind to rest about some things.
i wish i could go back in time. i wish i was stronger back then. i wish i believed in myself. i wish i knew what i know now.
sometimes i feel like i'm broken and i'm the one who did all the breaking. no one to blame but myself. i seriously wish i didn't remember the things i do. today i heard "more than this" while i was shopping and i wanted to just throw up. i just didn't want to hear that song.
took my first test today. i think it went well. i hope it went well.
gosh, i think i'm going to need a drink again this weekend.
blog later,
me.
