It's late and I should be in bed. Got back in Madison a little over an hour and half ago. Yet what I am doing? I am up, blogging and taking a break from this stupid application that I should have finished weeks ago but I left to the last minute. Ugh. My motivation is slowly dwindling. Perhaps it is the fact that I am so close to being done and I'm burned out. Or maybe it's the fact that I have grown apathetic and all I want is a vacation.

I just noticed that blogger did not update to Daylight Savings time. Interesting.

This was an interesting weekend. I think I already wrote about that. Ugh. My mind is reeling. I can't believe it's almost December. I've been waiting for December. I've been waiting for a lot of things actually that just don't seem to want to happen. Maybe they never will happen.

So someone is upset at me and there isn't much that I can do about the whole situation. I spent the majority of today trying not to think about the fight and rather just enjoy my time with my favorite person. He's too much. It's a little frightening how smart he is. But I love him. Man, he knows how to make anyone's day that much better. Sometimes I envy him for his innocence and how simplistic his life is. Although learning how to walk is quite challenging. I wonder how I learned to go walk and talk. Crazy.

Looking forward to Christmas though. I always look forward to Christmas. It's my holiday. Don't you love buying gifts for people? Heck! I love helping people buy gifts for people. I don't know what it is but I guess it's seeing the person's reaction and seeing how well you personally did at choosing a gift. Sometimes, it is a little disappointing but it's the thought that counts right?

I'm not thinking. I should go to sleep and wake up to finish all of this. Ugh. I don't really know what to do. I don't know how to make it all better. I hate that I'm neurotic and overly sensitive. I dislike how little confidence I have in myself and well, that I have anxiety. But seriously, you can't really make all of those things go away. In fact, I would argue that those are intrinsic qualities of who I am.

Okay, now I'm not making sense and I need to finish this thing up. Writing is supposed to come naturally. Maybe I need a Krispy Kreme to get the brain up and running again.

I hope you forgive me. I hope things work out. I hope I get some sleep tonight.
blog later.
me.