today was a strange day. i think i'm slowly regaining my sanity and control of my emotions. i found out that my former piano teacher passed away this past week. just the other day i was planning on calling her to see if she received my letter and package. i still hope she did get it.

i like to believe that i have no regrets but i totally regret not contacting her sooner. even though she wasn't my first piano teacher, and this sounds corny, but she totally believed in me and stuck by me. honestly, there were times i think she saw more in talent in me than i thought was really there. and i will be forever grateful that she taught me how to play "fantasie impromptu." i really do think that is my all time favorite classical piece.

so the memorial service is next saturday and i plan on attending. i'm supposed to have dinner with a friend the night before. i don't know if i'll be great company. i am not a fan of funerals and memorial services. really, i'm not. no one probably is but i think i take the passing of people i cared about or care about particularly hard.

part of me is kind of happy to be in hyde park right now. i plan on hanging out with my boyfriend, joe regenstein tomorrow but there's a good chance that i'll end up attempting to work from home. we'll see how successful i am there.

i still can't believe she's gone. it's bringing back memories that i'd rather forget right now. *sigh*