I know that someone isn't reading this because I don't think this person has ever read my blogger. Frankly, I don't even know who reads my blogger given I blog so sporadically. Nevertheless, this thing still exists and when I don't want to do what I should be doing, i.e feel the need to procrastinate, I blog. This is probably going to be my last blog as a resident of Hyde Park. Thereafter, I shall be in Wisconsin- America's Dairyland. At least I have good ice cream and apparently, good root beer to keep me company.

So reality and my emotions are starting to hit me. It's weird. This has never really happened before. I don't really know what to do, nor do I know what to think or expect. Everyone keeps telling me that I should be excited and be looking forward to Madison, which I am. But it doesn't feel right. Nothing has felt right this summer. Everything has felt a little off or like something is missing. Sadly, now I know what that thing is but it's too late.
I suppose the one good thing to come out of all of this is that now I can focus on myself more.

Just a few more boxes and I think I'm done packing. I'll be back. Can't wait to see a certain someone when he's born. I hope he's cute. He probably will be cute by default because his parents and family are all a lil umm... eccentric? I hope he learns to say "Ah E" or "Kathy" before he learns to say other people's name. (Mom and Dad excluded.) The baby shower went well. At least, that's what I'm going to tell myself. Mom-To-Be and Grandma-To-Be seemed to enjoy themselves so I guess it was all worth it.

I can't wait to decorate my apartment. I can't wait to FINALLY create a space for myself, a place of my own. So many different ideas have already started springing in my head... although not enough to distract me fully. Maybe once I start cooking for myself and have cable, life will be better. After all, there are Law and Order Marathons to look forward to in the future.

I guess this was a good thing. I guess Madison was the right choice. I hope it was. I don't want to have any regrets. Especially when it comes to New York.... So yeah. Madison, please be good to me.

blog later.
me.